Tuesday, May 27, 2003
Well how about that... went to work this morning and the store was closed. So now I have a special extra day off work. With this un-planned-for freetime I'll be changing the layout for my journal. I want to try out a new style, and see how it works. Some could say I'm going back to something similar to my old style. Very colorful, bright, and sometimes a little grundgy.
I also don't even feel like working today because of the insane crap that's been going on with my site. First it was down for a few weeks, then it was up for a day, then it was down for a whole month. Then it was up the last few hours yesterday... and now it seems that there is some kind of problem with IPs, and now sweetusagi.com has been pointing at various other sites hosted on my same server.
SWEETUSAGI.COM is back up!
SWEETUSAGI.COM is back up!
SWEETUSAGI.COM is back up!
SWEETUSAGI.COM is back up!
SWEETUSAGI.COM is back up!
Meet Bug (left) and Sam (right). We are going to keep one. I want Sam. First of all I think she's the cutest, what's more, also more playful than Bug. Bug is very shy and quiet, too shy and quiet. Sammy is also totally different colors than Misia and Puska... making her the logical choice as far as variation of pets is concerned. But more so than anything, Sammy is the one I fell in love with when I first saw them born.
I'm smoking Salem lights... my occational tribute to YUKI, and using a half melted vanilla candle as my ashtray. It makes for a most pleasant smell when I rub out my cigarette. I have a new product I swear by: Results Shine by Charles Worthington. My hair has always been shiny, straight, and smooth. But lately I've had lots of fly aways and was looking for something to tame them with. I was using some conditioner on my dry hair, but I wanted to use something less ghetto; So I picked some of this stuff up. Is you want your hair to be instantly smooth and shiny, use this stuff. It works for guys too. Michael's hair looks ten times better when I attack him with it.
Finally -off topic and very inappropriate- if anyone ever wondered how well I'm endowed, take a peek at the fourth pic for May in the camview. Nyahaha.
I recently applied for new employment, local, and more in my personal area of expertice. The trash-can in the kitchen started to wreck from something someone spilt in there and left forgotten... so now my stomach is churning, the trash-can is outside, and I set up a box fan ghetto-style up on the litterbox facing the window and it's lovely and cool, crisp, night air. I'm preparing my evenings pot of coffee, chewing on the inside of my mouth, and absolutly bored out of my unchallenged mind.
As much as I love to relax and play pokemon, it doesn't challenge me at all. I read, smoke, daydream, and play pokemon to unwind. I design to feel accomplishment and give my self esteem it's daily boost... but none of these things challenge me. It's a challenge to come up with an idea... to get my creative juices flowing; But after my newest idea has spawned it's all easier than clipping toenails. I need something more intellectually challenging in my life. Nothing academic, mind you, that's simply replacing one boredom with another. Put me in a math class and I'll just start complaining that I have no relaxing "mindless" time... which is what I have too much of now.
I've been trying out make-up recently. I'm the kind of girl that can throw on some light eyeliner and hit the road. But just for kicks I picked up some things to try... and of course I ended up looking like a whoe. I should pin up a little note for myself that reads: Red Eyeshadow, BAD IDEA! My darkgreen eyeliner (which looks blue, actually) is my new favorite. It adds some flair without looking trashy, so my old espresso eyeliners are collecting dust. Someone please tell me where to get VERY PALE foundation. In all my life I can never seem to find foundation that's as pale as I am. Curse this ghostly countenance! *slaps cheeks in a soft yet slightly eccentric manner*
Sooooo... oh yea!
I'm very lucky to have a friend like Brian. I'm glad I was given the chance to actually get to know him, and I think I should really take some more time to do so. I feel in my bones, if there is anything I might have to regret in the future, it will have been not trying harder to make our friendship stronger... even if it's just that little bit. He's someone I honestly think about on a daily basis, and I love him dearly and truly, but my fear of him not feeling the same "friendship-bond" thing that I feel, or feeling uncomfortable about me thinking of him as a best friend, makes me hold back. I've never had a close friend in my life. So first of all, I'm not really sure how to communicate the way I would like with people... and then my low self esteem makes me afraid to get close because of oh-so-many possibilities I might get rejected in some way. But I think that he's worth overcoming this bullshit that holds me back. Sure, he's a little younger, our personalities are different, and we have never met in person... but I know he's someone I could have a strong friendship with. It would end up being something I would cherish and hold close for a very long time.
Oh geez... what did I do today? Lunch... shopping (the vintage clothing store near my house, one of my new shirts can be seen in the 'cam' gallery... the second image for 'May')... going to get my nails filled in a few minutes... then comes laundry and cleaning house... OH! And a picture of me for the next layout if it comes out usable. I'm bored...
I've been busy and lazy, and blogger doesn't work. Don't worry, I saw all the suggestions and they were appreciated. But actually I think I'd like to do it manually. It's not that annoying. This is probably going to be one of my more boring posts... a run down of what I've been doing. A lack-luster journal entry, fitting for a lack-luster week.
Michael's 29th birthday (he feels old) was on the 7th. I was excited that it was his birthday, but more so I was excited about giving him the gifts! First of all, he was with me when I purchased the smaller of the two... some Zelda game for GBA. But later, and unbeknownst to him, I also got him a Game Boy Advance SP. Those, and cake and beer the night before, ate up a considerable amount of last week's paycheck. Which occured to him upon seeing the GBA-SP. *nervous grin*
Just after my last post Misia had her kittens! A cuddly litter of four kittens arrived to our home via Misia quivvering with exhaustion under our livingroom couch! Two boys and two girls! The boys: One, the biggest/strongest/loudest is all black with some gray hairs here and there spead evenly, and in longer strands than the rest of his fur, down by his paws with a small white patch at his chest, and the other, the most curious and rambuncious of the bunch, looking exactly like Misia herself. The girls: My favorite all white with grey patches here and there, and the meekest one who never meows, Michael's favorite, looking just like Misia but with black spots/freckles on her muzzle. So this now is our happy little family. Misia, the most caring mother... and Puska the grumpy ole house wench who is hungry for all our attention and bitterly hostile toward all the other cats.
Yesterday Michael bought us 'shop girl'... a script style novelle by Steven Martin. I've been wanting to read this book for a while... and is, in fact, the latest of my reads since Lullaby's release about eight months earlier. Adam's comment on this book simply urged me to go out and get it finally. I finished it just a few hours ago. The book is sadly short and hollow, and the style which I decribed as "script style" made me feel as if I am, in fact, waiting for the movie version to get the complete picture. It's irony and descriptiveness suffer from lack of detail throughout the rest of the book. It's main flaw... dullness and predictableness. But something unknown is keeping me from calling this book a total loss. I would award it a completely nuetral score... four or five on a scale of one to ten. Initially I identified strongly with the main character until I realized she is much more fashionable and older than myself.
I've been training my newest pokemon team, and am three fours of the way through the regular game play of Sapphire.
Now I need to go reupload the YUKI fanlisting and the Idol Xchange clique before I work on getting the Tommy and Wind-Up Bird Chronicle fanlistings in working order.