I spend way way way too much time here, I need to stop going... it sucks up too much of my time! Hahaha.
I would have posted more, and sooner, but blogger was being a biatch. Aside for this layout I also made a beautiful icy one with lots of white and blue I'll be putting up for winter and my 21st birthday (alchoholisim, here I come! j/k). Between this layout and that I hope Brian will have a gift for me! It's ok if he doesn't, but how can I not be excited over a layout gift from my favorite designer and best friend! Hehe.
There's something about seeing my stuff and Michael's stuff together in the same room that makes my heart ache in the best way. Even seeing something unimportant of his laying around make's my heart beat a little faster. Am I being too emotional? I don't know. It seems like since May -or so- I've become a much more emotional person. My emotions were always a little over the top... when I'm sad I'm really really sad... when I'm happy, I'm REALLY REALLY happy. I'm not manic, mind you, it's just that when an emotion comes naturally I seem to express it and feel it much more strongly than the average person. But since being with Michael the blurry line between each emotion is much more defined, and each is just... stronger somehow.
This feeling of contentment and warmth, for me, translates into this wonderful heart-achy feeling I just can't help by revel in. What's more, I tried to explain this to him, only got a few words out, but somehow he knew what I was talking about. I don't think he feels things the way I do, but the fact that he understands me, even a little bit is just so great. There's a great number of other things about him that make me feel all fuzzy inside, but no one probably cares to hear them as they are a bit more personal in nature.
listening to: 'byuu byuu' by YUKI
I can't stop listening to it for some reason... someone on the jpopmusic.com forums asked for mp3s from the 66db single, and byuu byuu is the coupling song. Since then I've been listening to it constantly all day. Oh!! As most people know, I live with my boyfriend Michael. Well before me he already had a roommate... also named Mike. Hehehe. It doesn't get as confusing as one might think. We also had a fourth roommate, Jeremy, who's never here. Haha, well anyway, Mike (the other one, not my bf) is a very talented artist, and I got the url to his site yesterday. It's aradani.com . I'll be linking it from sweetusagi at some point also. My favorite piece of artwork he's done isn't on that site, he's working on it now in fact. He's really amazing. I hope he puts it on the site when it's done. It's seriously... insane. I don't know anyone who can draw like that.
I caught my first Anime Nashville meeting yesterday. I was an hour late, so I only got to meet a few of the members. I was nervous about meeting new people so I made Michael come with me. I got there at the tail end of the meeting in time to be glanced at. A Chobit's fan named Matt (he had brought his collection of Chobits manga and some other stuff, I only have 1 ~ 4, it was nice of him to bring those for me to see ^_^ ) asked "Are you Nat?" Hehe, for some reason I like 'Nat' and 'Nats' I dunno why. I think that's the first time anyone has called me that in real life, except the first time I talked to Michael on the phone, he said "Is this Natsuki?" Being called by your self-chosen nickname, even when people know it's not your real name, makes you feel good. I feel special, like the person cares, or is thoughtful enough to call me by the name I chose for myself. Maybe I'm holding it with too much importance, but that's how it feels to me.
Anyway... Right away most of them left, and a group went out into the mall (the meeting was at Tower Records at Opry Mills) to find a place to eat. Some of the members stayed with me -how sweet!!- while I waited for Michael to come in from parking the car and we joined the group that went to eat a few moments later. Mike and I didn't eat anything, but sat and talked and listened to everyone else. I was the only girl there, aside from another who was sitting next to me with her boyfriend, she didn't talk to me at all. The guys were all funny, I couldn't stop laughing. I would have loved to share some of the funny bits, but I'm afraid it just wouldn't translate well in text. You had to be there, basically! I don't know if it was because I was nervous, or what... apparantly I do laugh a lot anyway. Well whatever, I had fun, and I will try to go to more meetings in the future! ^__^
I'm working on my second 'project' for my secret job that no one knows about! ^.~ (well almost no one, SHH!!!! NO TELLING!)
I miss my sweet cherish boy! *weep*
listening to: 'ai no hi mittsu orange -instrumental-' by yuki + chara
Ok... here's one more little hint as to what it is I'm working on right now! Hehehe...
FARK!! I have a chest cold! noooooo! *hacks up a nasty phlegm ball*
listening to: 'Around the World' by Daft Punk
talking to: the pretty-ful Kayla and Heidi
Tomorrow, or this week, I'm going to get my hair cut and get bangs! ^_^ I dunno how different I will look, I might ask first, or get a wig or something to see how I would look. So actually it's a 80% chance I will get them, and a 50% chance I'll get them this week... so. Michael said I'll look cute with them, and I'm such a YUKI fan it's a wonder I didn't do something like this before (uh... because YUKI has bangs... and all, and goodness knows we have the same hair color [except for VERY recently]). All week I've been waking up late feeling all dried out. My eyes, nose, and throat get dry as a dessert. I wake up with headaches, and I basically feel like crap for the rest of the day. I also pee a lot (er... too much info I suppose...), I think I have some kind of water-retention problem, like, I can't keep it in at all, and this heater in our room doesn't help matters. So today Michael bought a humidifier for me! It's on right now, but the real test will come in the morning... let's hope! *grin* My man is so good to me. *swoon*
In other news, Kay-wa ish pwetty-ful!
I just joined Caroline's webring Blogaholics Anon. go join!
Wow... I've been missing out on so much by not using other fonts. As long as I've had my site (over three years now) I have never once used 'Times New Roman' or 'Georgia'... what you're looking at right here is the first ever appearance of these fonts on any site created by me. The dates are bold-italic TNR, and the white body text is Georgia. I do believe this is the most 'graceful'/'vintage' design I've ever done. My style is usually bold and colorful, digital, strange, or a mix of those. Hey, some people have IMed me wanting to know about the new site I'm making, well here is your one and only vague hint; this layout.
It's still happening. You would have thought that by now I would be all settled in and comfortable. Well, yes, I am comfortable, and happy... I'm ever so deeply happy. But that feeling of "Oh my gawd... how did I ever get so lucky... This can't be real. Do I deserve to be this lucky? I need to pinch myself, give me a moment please!"... just, overwhelming thankfulness. Everytime you fall in love, you question those past few times you remember feeling, or saying that you were in love. Then you wonder, if you doubted those things you were once so sure of, how do you know that this one is different? I don't know, and I don't care. I can finally forget my past. I am, without a shadow of a doubt, completely in love. I'm for - absolute - positive that I have never been this happy, or this content, in all my life.
All day I've been working on a layout for my next site (not telling) and whenever I close my eyes I see the subjects of the layout, crisp and clear, in terrible nightmare-ish pink! With sparkle, no less! I need to do laundry. I need to quit smoking. I need to call my bank back home and close the account. I really, really need to get a full night sleep without being awakened at three in the morning... I say no more... hehehe. Actually, fuck sleep... muaha.
Only the best for you dear ! Sally can FuxX0r!!!!!
*shudder* Oh gawd... I just had to do something REALLY gross. There's no way I'm talking about it on this journal. Just know that I had to do something rather... ugh... and... yea. *swallows hard* Things I do to avoid embarassment. Honestly. *rubs eyes* Urg...
So anyway!! I'm trying to think of what interesting things I can do with the cam Michael bought me. So far I just have a slew of pics of me just smiling or whatever. I thought of holding stuff up or flashing peace signs... but that's all old hat and boring. Just every once in a while I'll take a shot of whatever I'm doing... and put the little captions and stuff... yea. I thought of posting something more worthwhile... but what I just had to do has sort of ruined my mood.
Oh! But all last night I mulled over ideas for my second novel. Actually, out of my two major writing projects, I'm not sure which I would like to debut with. My first idea is deeper and requires much more thought and care, so I'm thinking of doing my second idea up as a smaller, lighter novelle. Easy on the mind... then strike back with my original book and show what I'm really made of. I'm happy about this whole set up, really. I can hardly wait.
I'm watching Michael play this game called 'Neverwinter' (I think) with his roomate and some other people who stopped over. It looks interesting, maybe I'll play it sometime. Other than that I have nothing much to post about today... blaaaaaa. Oh! But... YUKI's 4th single 'Stand Up! Sister' will be released November 20th! No preorders are yet available. I'll be checking everyday until I find a place. Until then keep an eye on YUKI : Punk Girl.
Weeee! November is here! Humm... new layout... reorganized just about everything. This layout is very simple, so I think I'll stick with this one for a while, or at least until I can come up with something cool. I went to a Halloween party yesterday night with Michael. Of course he knew most of the people there. I, on the other hand, didn't know anyone. I don't really want to talk about the party. I mean nothing major happened, and I was much too shy there, so I couldn't really make talking about who I met sound very interesting either. I could talk about what people were dressed as, but that seems kind of a lame topic as well. Actually, something I did notice. Most of the people who dressed up for this party didn't even seem like they noticed they were even wearing a costume... To me it seemed like to them their costume was nothing more than a hat. They put it all on and forgot about it. Some other people walked around in character... like this one vampire girl which got rather annoying. She roared at me, and then later she kicked me, but I think that was an accident. Drunk people. Wee... Halloween! Oh! I did come up with a smashing idea for next Halloween though! Of course it's web related... go geeky-me!