I just finished slicing the next main page layout for sweetusagi.com... *sigh* all 35 interlocking pieces of it! It's pretty much a more colorful -if you can believe it!- sequel to my current layout on the main page. No, I didn't use the pic of Utada again, I used YUKI this time, of course! So far, judging my own layouts, I think the current Utada layout is probably my best work to date. I think the next layout will top that.

[added 7:30AM]
I coded the layout mentioned above... er... yeay?
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I'm feeling rather sad because I finished 'Lullaby' so quickly. Reading, I didn't feel so bored... but now my new attention grabber is over and it's only Monday! I have days and days of boredom and entrapped excitement to deal with.

What the hell... 'snickers' is making a weird high pitched noise every few seconds, with no definite lengths or intervals... (snickers is my laptop, btw). I have one and a half packs of cigarettes left, and then I'm done. No more smoking. Seriously. No really. Um... I'm not kidding. Honest, I'm quitting. FUCK YOU! er...

So anyway... what was I saying? Oh yea... now since I breezed right through ‘Lullaby’ I have no outlet, no distraction. I’m doooooomed! But it’s worth it. The waiting, the boredom. It really is. Maybe someday... I’ll tell you about it.

Just paid for this, I already have WARP, but the one I have has since developed a scratch *cry* and it wasn't the box set; It WAS official, it came with the request slip for the final compilation, but it wasn't AS official as it could have been. Hehe! Now I'll have the full blown out-and-out best official version of the final album :D Not much different... but I'm an obsessive collector. It's my vice!

I'm fidgety during the day wondering how soon my Yello-Mon singles will get here. I'm taking a vow to not visit ebay except to check for ONE item that I really do need. It seems like every time I go I find something else I want. I'm looking for ONE item now, and I've promised myself not to buy anything else.

I've finished reading 'Lullaby' by Chuck Palahniuk. Hehe, it's so funny, the only books I've ever found myself completing within a day or two have been his books. I read this book and Fight Club in two days each. 'Invisible Monsters' I breezed through in just under 10 hours (with breaks, not just straight through). 'Invisible Monsters' is my favorite of his... in fact I'll list all five of his books -all of which I own and have read at least once each- in order of best to worst:

1. Invisible Monsters
2. Choke
3. Lullaby
4. Fight Club
5. Survivor

Actually... I think I like 'Lullaby' and 'Fight Club' about the same. 'Invisible Monsters' is my hands down favorite by him, and I definitely didn't like 'Survivor' very much at all. The order in which these books were published was: Fight Club, Survivor, Invisible Monsters, Choke, Lullaby. I think if he re-wrote 'Fight Club' again now it would make second or third on my list, because of course the themes and plots are the best... making the movie my all time favorite. I consider 'Invisible Monsters' the girl's version of Fight Club... but of course miles of difference separate the two plots. However, the themes are too similar for comfort.

I'm going to start over and read 'The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle' for a third time. I've read it two times straight through, and lately I've been reading many of the chapters in a random order. So if this is my third or fourth time reading my favorite book... you can take your pick. Ever since I found Murakami and Palahniuk the Banana Yoshimoto novels I used to hold in high regard seem to be dulling. They aren't anywhere near as good as I remember them to be.

I'm so happy, excited, and nervous out of my mind over this special something that sucks the interest out of my daily activities. I'm Dorothy in black and white waiting to fling open the door and find a brilliant new special something in every shade of every color in the crayon box. No, no... don't talk about it. Contain... Maintain control... Hold it all back... Exert self control... *squeezes her eyes shut tight, and balling her hands up into two little pale-white fists she smiles wide and emits a tiny squeal from the way back of her throat*

I have a lot I could post about, but I've been too lazy, and now I'm tired.

Went shopping, got these cargos in khaki and a cute, dark brown, long sleeved thing at Old Navy. Picked up a hard cover of Lullaby, Chuck Palahniuk's newest (fifth) novel, at Borders; not as good as his other novels, but I'm already 105 pages into it... that's about all for today.

Last night (Friday night) kenken called and we chatted for about an hour and a half. It was our second time on the phone, and I have to say much nicer then our first convo; which was totally us being retarded and cracking weird jokes. You would think talking to someone you've never met would make you at least a little nervous or edgy. But it was actually rather natural talking to him. Really though, I think I wouldn't have it any other way. I consider him a very close friend, and it would be a shame not to talk to him in person like this. ^__^ *MEGA SQUEEZE* He's a good conversationalist, lol, well maybe, at least there's never a dull moment! Between, er... ample cosplayers and Ayu's jutting rack, I think we managed to squeeze in some actually meaningful topics! XD

Ug... time for sleep! Goodnight!

I'm bored... want proof?

Natsuki Girl : Hello everyone! I'm your host Natsuki, and welcome to the "Name Your Favorite Piece of Bedroom Furniture Show!" Our first contestant is Triode! Triode hales from NY and currently attends U of M where he says he's "doing mighty fine" but just doesn't know if he can remain sane for the duration of his college life. So... now that we know our first contestant let's move on to round 1. Triode! Tell us... what IS your favorite piece of bedroom furniture?

Auto response from Triode : bed

Natsuki Girl : There you have it folks, Triode's favorite piece of bedroom furniture is a 'bed' for 3 points! We'll be right back with round 2 after a brief word from our sponsors: Dodge Ram, and Viagra!

[added @ 3:55PM]

Natsuki Girl : Welcome to round 2 of the "Name Your Favorite Piece of Bedroom Furniture Show!" Our next contestant is Ben! Ben, tell us... what is YOUR favorite piece of bedroom furniuture?

Auto response from Ben : video game

Natsuki Girl : I'm sorry, but a 'video game' is not a valid piece of bedroom furniture. Ben is now at -2 points for an invalid response. On to round 3!!

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Eventually, once everyone is finally using css to size and style their text, the 'Text size' option on IE will be rendered obsolete. *sigh of boredom*

This past week, and probably part of next week were/will be boring! It's that annoying feeling you get when you're waiting for something to happen. You feel that starting something else, or getting involved with other activities is sort of meaningless, because you're waiting for that something. It's not far enough away to just sit back and relax about, but it's not really close enough to start getting ready for either. Nothing tastes the same, nothing feels the same, nothing sounds the same. Everything feels like it's holding it's metaphorical breath when you're waiting.

I can't sleep... now, I can't really say the reason I can't sleep is because I'm waiting. All I know is my sleeping pattern was off to begin with, but on top of that some other stuff's been happening. It seems like no matter how much I've been yawning, the moment I turn off the light and lay down in bed my mind is thinking of a dozen things. I can't even try to stop thinking; I can't clear my mind. The topics aren't even all the important or urgent really. They range from what I'm going to wear tomorrow (even if I'm not going to be going out anywhere) to, of course, this ever-special something that I'm waiting for.

Also, the past two nights I've been becoming dizzy. I'm completely fine until I go to bed. I'm the type of person who can't just drop off to sleep, it takes a while. While I'm waiting to fall asleep and trying to suppress my thoughts to a low murmur in my head, I start to feel strange. I'll sit up or turn to look at the clock and I'll be overcome with dizziness.

Coffee time!

I got sick of the Bjork layout ALREADY... so here is some Jiro! :p kyuuuuuuuuu!

Natsuki wants to make a new site... I have a few ideas, and ultimately I will pick the project I want to do in the end... but I'm interested as to which project people would rather see a site on. If you want, look at the site topics I have listed below and lemme know which you think I should make. Thanks :D

1. The Yellow Monkey (my second favorite band)
2. Aikawa, Ami-go, and Ohguro Maki mini-combo-fansite O_o;;
3. Mamotte Shugogetten (manga)
4. Love Hina (manga)
5. Kodomo no Omocha (manga)
6. Chobits (should I reopen my old site and complete it?)
7. Kaitou Saint Tail and Takamagahara
    (and combine them with the Cyber Mink site?)

Of course, if I do pick up a new site project, it might not even get started until next year... but hey. I'm itching for some new stuff. ^__^

Woot woot... working on tutorials! In fact, the picture in this layout is one of the images I'm using in my 'jpeged image restoration' tutorial! That pic of Bjork up there used to be an ugly warped looking jpg, before I worked my magic on it! Wee! So I'll teach people how to make jpeged images they find in galleries usable again! :D kyaaan! The 'basic cging' tutorial has been up for ages on my sweetusagi.com help pages, but of course it will be included on sweetcream.net along with three new ones: 'Advanced CGing', 'Jpeged Image Restoration', and '3D and Motion'.

Woo... :D omg... just saw a little fox run up on the deck! I love foxes. ^_^ er... but maybe I don't want one hanging around my favorite smoking spot...

YEAY!! ^__^ *dances about*

There used to be a post here about Abby and Yumi... but it's been...

[ DELETED! BAHAHAHAH!! ]

I'm ok... really... ^_^;;

listening to: 'white key' by Suzuki Ami

Cyber Mink : DONE!
Digital Idol : DONE!
Lollipop Girl (this journal) : DONE, goes up tomorrow! hehe
SweetCream.net : Sometime next month!

Ahhhhhh... damn... I got so much done! "Someone has been quite the busy bee XD", says Bev. ^_^

I was accepted to the USA clique today, woo, go me! Which I think I initially discovered from Kyla's blog. More than actually being accepted, I like this clique because it actually SAYS something of value. I mean sure, other cliques tell visitors what music you like, where you shop... and all that. But for some reason the idea of having a little pixel state is somehow more up-scale. Hahaha *shrug* I just thinks it's a great idea over all. From what the rule pages say many many hours were spent on creating the images of all the states in many different colors. That's dedication for you right there folks. Join it. Yea... so now I have a tiny, pink, pixel michigan on my journal... *pokes it*

*thinks for a moment* I've been wanting to see Mimi wo Sumaseba again for the longest time. It's one of my all time faves by Ghibli.

My partner for smirking-revenge.org has completely and totally VANISHED off the face of the planet... so I have no idea if he wants to still go ahead with the project... or maybe something horrible has happened... I have no idea what-so-ever. I'm a bit worried, but somehow I think he's probably ok and just taking an internet hiatus.

Oh geez what else... tomorrow night two new layouts will be up on my Mink and Koge-Donbo sites. Um um ummmms... then I guess finishing up sweetcream.net tutorials and a new journal layout would be productive...

GOODNIGHT!

listening to: 'Cheese PIZZA' by JUDY AND MARY

Wow... I think since doing that Supersailorchibimoon project, all other photoshop projects seem like a breeze! I've completed the new layouts for Cyber Mink and Digital Idol... those will be up by tomorrow night, or the following morning. Also, I've used the SSCmoon picture I colored as the new corner logo on Sweet Moon! It's crazy how much more professional the site looks, just by changing the pic in the corner!

Finally got myself some more vanilla coke... I'm sitting here drinking a vanilla coke and coffee at the same time. *buuuuzzzzzzz*

Has anyone else seen The Ring movie trailer... and thought "WHA?! It looks like an American remake of 'Ringu'!!!" Well, from what it looks like, this IS an American remake of the famous Japanese horror film 'Ringu'. In which case I CANNOT wait to see it! It's not out yet, but if it is a remake, it should at least be worth the money to see it! I highly suggest you see the original first, if you can. *flicks off all the lights, leaves the tv on with snow, rolls eyes back, in a wavy scary voice* "saaa~~~da~~ ko~~~" *screams*!!!!

"I have watched horror-movies all my life, but the Ringu-movies beats EVERYTHING - they REALLY scared me." "Based on the novels Ring, Rasen and Loop by Suzuki Koji there are five Ringu-movies; Ringu (1998), Rasen (1998), Ringu 2 (1999), Ringu 0: Baasudei (2000) and The Ring Virus (1999 - Korea)." -- Arvid Forsberg

Some links: A nice review of Ringu and Ringu : manga version

I found a really good quote for this situation, on Adam's journal. Hope he doesn't mind my quoting him:

"People are who people are, and what we think of them is just that: what we think. We're not so powerful as to be able to assign attributes to other people based solely on our opinions or observations." -- Adam

First things first. I have linked two really great people on my side bar. They are: Kyla and Christine! ^_^ I would like to thank my imposter, Abby, for bringing these two excellently designed logs to my swift attention. They are now proudly linked.

Well guess what everyone, I haven't said this before, but I'm saying it now. Abby is losing her hosting!

A friend of mine (I'm not telling who, 'cus I'll be damned if I'll let you annoy any more of my friends) has sent me a link to the blog of one Miss Kyla Wing. I know her, sort of, we used to talk on kenken's Emotional Boards. I never talk to her, but I certainly do not dislike her in anyway. Abby has taken it upon herself to imposter me on Kyla's tag board. She posted as 'natsuki' with a link to sweetusagi.com and said some nasty things about Kyla's layouts. In return fire Kyla said some mean things about my site *frown*. It is my only guess that in this way Abby is attempting to make it seem as if more people than just herself dislike me. She does not realize that Kyla has probably only said these things in retaliation to what was said to her, not because she truly dislikes me or my designs.

Kyla, I tagged you, asking you to save the log file and to email me about this situation. My post here proves that those two posts on there are from me. But only those two and none others. I will want to send that log file and IP to Caroline, Abby's current site host, to get her hosting revoked.

[ added at 5:05am ]
I just received an email from Christine. She saw this post and had something of her own to email to me. It seems HERE AGAIN Abby has impostered as me and insulted this webmaster in the same fashion as before. Along with Kyla's future reply to me on this matter I will also be forwarding Christine's email to Abby's current host. Thank you very much Christine and I'm sorry for Abby's obnoxious behavior. GREAT, now I've become Abby's fucking babysitter. That's it Abby! No more cookies before nap time! *spank spank*
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[ added at 9:00pm ]
I received an email from Kyla a couple of hours ago. She has the log saved and we've cleared up the situation. Thank you Kyla!
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[ added at 10:32pm ]
Sighting #3 of Abby pretending to be me. In checking my hit stats I found a link to an archive page on snow.nu. Here again Abby has posted as me and said something nasty to the site owner. I had an arguement with this site owner a while back about her being rude to me on AIM (NOT about her being a wanna be, whoops too bad Abby, close but no cigar). My encounter with the girl at snow.nu lasted all of ONE DAY, yet Abby and Yumi are trying there best here to make it seem as if has lasted "months." That's amusing, especially since it was Yumi who asked me to talk to this girl in the first place (trying to get ME to do HER dirty work, and OF COURSE she will deny it and call me a liar, but then... isn't that what hypocrites do? Heh!). If the owner of that blog wishes to pass along the IP of the natsuki imposter for posting, then that's all good with me. But probably not.
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[ added at 3:40pm Sept. 21st ]
Abby, in a desperate attempt to get back at me, posted on my sweetusagi main site tag board. LEARN TO USE EMAIL! Duhuurr!!!
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Also Abby, I heard you are annoying some other of my friends, people who's blogs I link to. I'm going to have to ask you to leave them alone. I hate having to feel that it's somehow my fault that you have obnoxiously stepped into their online lives. It is certainly not my fault at all, but it is my nature to be upset when someone is pestering people I care about.

Abby... can you not see that people are not falling for your little plan to cause people to hate me? Are you seeing this at all? I hate to brag, but as much as you hate to realize it, I'm quite a likable person. You're favorite thing to do while impostering me is to sound egotistical and bragging. You even quote me, but don't you realize, I'm allowed to brag about myself ON MY OWN SITE (everybody does it! It's a good thing! I like to see people feeling good about themselves and their hard work). I do not brag elsewhere. Believe it or not Abby, you are the only person I know who hates me.

Also, I am NOT egging you on, I'm defending myself and my right to say whatever the fuck I please on MY SITE, yes, MY VERY OWN SITE, which I pay hundreds a year for. Yes Abby, hundreds. It's called being an adult, managing money, being passionate about a hobby, dealing with social outcasts like YOU. It's all part of the 'main path' the 'master plan', 'LIFE'. I want you removed from mine. I can, and I will do this. Better find a new home little piggy, 'cus this pissed off wolf's huffing and puffing.

Note to the public: If you see any tags, gbook, or message board posts by 'natsuki' 'nats' or 'lynn'... or any other name that seems to refer to me; if it's something pointless, unwanted, nasty, mean, or stupid... it is most likely not me. You can email me at natsuki@sweetusagi.com to ask me about it or bring it to my attention. If this happens, please save the log file and IP for reference. Also note, I live in Michigan, trace the IP, if it does not indicate a Michigan source, it is absolutely not me. If it indicates a New York source, it is Abby. I also have all natsuki-imposter IPs, sent to me, displayed below for perusal. If it indicates anywhere else, I have no clue. People have been known to get proxies, so check with me either way to verify the post. I rarely even post on gbook or tag boards as it is, and if I were to, it would be a compliment or shout out, something nice. So, heads up everyone, there's a bitch-ass psycho on the loose, and her name is Abby.

natsuki-imposter logged IPs: 155.43.82.227

[ I've moved this post to above the 'imposter' stuff. ]

listening to: 'Wahoo Stomp' from Klonoa 2 : Lunatea's Veil

I've been looking for an mp3 of this song -Wahoo Stomp- FOREVER! I finally found a nice girl online who had it and she sent it to me. I won't give out her im name or site url incase she doesn't want it to be given out, because I don't know her personally. This had to be the hardest song to find online EVER. I have it uploaded, if you need it too, like I did, email me and I'll drop you a link to get it.

doo doo ba doo dee da deeii~ doou~ doo baba doo daa dee doou wo~ wo~

I bought a shit load of batteries. My father commented that they must be for my hearing aide. He ment my CD player and headphones (because I always have them on). Hehe.

listening to: 'white key' by Suzuki Ami
drinking: coffee

I made the Supersailorchibimoon image I colored into an aim icon, I have it down on the bottom with the others. Enjoy. *ponders what to do today*

1. Call bank (WOOO!!!!)
2. Shower
3. Internet stuffies
4. Tidy my room (ug... tomorrow)
5. Work on my book (later tonight I will)
6. More internet stuffies
7. Talk to Michael *heheee*
8. More internet stuffies???
9. SLEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!

listening to: 'love the island' by Suzuki Ami

And four hours later (obviously, it didn't take me four hours, I've been chatting, doing other things, and taking breaks), I have an ALMOST complete Supersailorchibimoon! Here are the aprox. break-down times of how long each phase took me (this includes my doing nothing and thinking, trail and error... etc):

phase 1 - the hair : 25 minutes
phase 2 - the skin : 5 minutes
phase 3 - the eyes : 10 minutes
phase 4 - access. : 10 minutes
phase 5 - suit & boots : 10 minutes
phase 6 - skirt & bows : 15 minutes
phase 7 - trans. 'wings' : 5 minutes
phase 8 - outline editting : 30 minutes
phase 9 - background : 10 minutes
phase 10 - finishing touches, resizing, cropping : 5 minutes
total aprox. time : 2 hours and 5 minutes

This is actually a little taste of what the main purpose of SweetCream.net is all about (er... will be). I've always loved working with Photoshop, graphic making and editing, etc... But recently, my interested in graphics has gone through the roof. The main face of sweetcream will be all about teaching people to do sweet graphics. Of course we aren't going to give away all our secrets: We'll have tutorials, project walk-throughs, and useful things, all graphic related. Not just CGing either, other graphic techs. will be covered as well. The sub sites on sweetcream, will of course be kento's and my personal graphic sites... as in, we'll each have a site to display our own stuff, and nothing for you! But you'll have the main site so... chill. Hehe.

note: thumbnail changed and some content added at 8:00 AM.

listening to: 'COSMETIC LOVE' by THE YELLOW MONKEY

I've been working on coloring a cute black and white image of Supersailorchibimoon. Below I present to you, my current work in progress:

also...

final note on the imposter topic: Yes Abby, I'm sure you're correct. I'm sure there is at least one other person who hates me aside from yourself. The real question is not who or how many people hate me... the question is who or how many people hate me for a good reason (rumors, jealousy, and supporting a friend's biased opinion does not count). Also, ask yourself these other questions: You must know that for every person in the world there are people who like them, and people who dislike them... in which case, why would someone (you) have such a deep interest in the people who feel some certain way about another specific person (me)? What are your motives? Are they founded on logic and reason? Are they founded on jealousy? Boredom? What were your reasons in picking the subject (i.o.w. victim) that you have? And finally, why do you feel the need to bother the general public -who have pretty good ideas as to the answers of all these unanswered questions- with your pointless, unfounded bantering? I bid you adieu.

listening to: 'Rock Star' by The Yellow Monkey

I've talked to Caroline about what Abby is doing here on my tag board, and that Abby has broken a rule set in her site hosting services.

There is my "threat" Abby. I tried to give you a chance to leave me alone, but you refused. Abby, you don't seem to realize that YOU are the 'bad guy' here. Why can't you see that your harassment, taunting, and manipulative ways are built for nothing but bad things? I have done NOTHING to you. I'm guilty only of not believing your lies which seemed to piss you off to no end. You on the other hand have done the following: Stolen graphics from me, harassed me, lied to others about me and things I've said or haven't said, harassed me AGAIN, and now you've been flooding and impostering me on my tag board. Through all of this, especially recently, I've totally ignored you, forgot you existed. It's a simple equation, Abby = Bad, Natsuki = Good... in this case anyway. So, go away. Keep lying and doing these bad things Abby, keep it up, see where it leads you in life.

In other news... I had my first vanilla coke in over a month!! I didn't realize how much I missed this under appreciated soft drink.

listening to: 'Subjective Late Show' by THE YELLOW MONKEY

&
*drum roll*

1. Rest and try to stay awake! uhh... yea
   Shower
   sexually molest the tag-board imposter, groove me baby!
2. Make some calls
3. Cut a check
4. Take a walk for some smokes
5. Tidy my room
   Nap
6. Do other net related things
7. Site work and/or writing for my book (tomorrow)
8. Talk to Michael... ahh, the highlight of my day!
9. Read some more WUBC
10. SLEEP!

Abby, chen liu, and the imposter natsuki on my tag board, as well as several screen names on aim... etc etc are all the same person. She's doing her five-year-old best to try and annoy me, or make me look bad (HA! As if!), or both, I don't really know, or care, for that matter. If you'll please turn your attention to my tag board (and I've saved them incase she tries to erase her tracks) you'll note she's trying VERY hard to make it seem as if I am impostering myself. Why would one girl care so badly if that really were the case? It, of course, is not the case. It was a rather interesting plan she had going, in a preschool kind of way, it might have even worked if a. I was younger and less intelligent than I am (like say, her? HAHA) and b. if she was actually clever enough and respected enough to pull something like that off (which she's clearly not! HAHA).

Not only does her little plot not have a point or purpose it's extremely transparent and poorly executed. Next time you would like to try and make a fool of someone twice your age, maybe... oh gee, I dunno, give it up? I want nothing to do with you darling, you're not the sort of person I like to associate myself with. I have no desire to talk to you. So... go away. *smile*

As for the comments about sex with you. It was meant to freak you out, to exterminate you. Oddly enough you keep coming back for more. I am comfortable with my sexuality, so I'm totally at ease cracking jokes like this. I'm older and more mature than you. I know it's hard for your feeble childish brain to grasp the concepts of 'maturity' and 'stability of personality and character'. I'll make it easy. There's only two simple words you need to know to completely understand me: 'GO AWAY'.

Oh, and Abby, if you keep annoying me I just might have to make your internet life a bit harder (and no, contrary to popular belief, I am in no way a hacker. I'm more of a say... 'sting puller' in the social ‘I know people, and people know me, and we watch each other’s backs’ sort of way)... think about it, but not too hard, you're little head might explode from the pressure. If you think this is somehow wrong, think again. Just as in the real world, if you harass someone (like you have to me) they will take steps against it (as I will). Check mate sweety. Go play with someone your own age.

[EDIT]

---from tag board---
Abby: Lynn- I doubt you could affect my online life in the least. You are one girl. Do not threaten me again, or I will have reason to press charges.

Natsuki: you can't press charges on online. What you are doing to me is what's "wrong" what I plan to do is totally legal, I assure you. It will become clear if you continue to bother me.
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You obviously didn't think about what I said. First of all I have never threatened anyone, and I certainly would never go out of my way to do anything illegal (or even pretend that I would) to you; or anyone for that matter. You do not know me, but I'm probably one of the most peaceful and honest people you could ever meet (rude, harsh, blunt… yes, but violent, mean, and cruel... never). Of course I in no way expect you to admit it. I have plenty of friends and acquaintances (also honest and peaceful people) that know who I am, and what I would and would not say and do in situations such as this.

Remember way back when, you tried to convince Yumiko that I had threatened you with physical harm and death? There again you tried to make me appear as something I am not, and even one of my "worst enemies" (for lack of a better description) saw through your lies. Despite that she dislikes me Yumiko defended the truth, probably one of the more honorable things I've seen from her as far as online matters go. (I'm not dragging her into this, it's just a very good example of your chronic lying and failed manipulations.) That's the difference between a 'normal conflict with retaliations' (Yumiko and I, although not so much anymore) and a 'twisted and moronic exchange of petty harassments'... which is what you are doing here.

What I will do to get you back for this petty harassment is nothing but a completely legal textual exchange, sending information to another person in connection with you who will see to it that you stop bothering me. It may come in the form of a warning, or, if this person sees fit, something even harsher. At the very least it will make your online time afterward just a little bit irritating (if only for a couple of days). If you do not believe me, and you wish to see what I can make happen, then you go right ahead and continue to harass me.

Again, I implore you to stop trying to play these games with me. I will always win. Truth conquers over lies. As does justice and peace over wrongness and chaos.

[EDIT]

Final note: Unlike some people, my tag board is not all that important to me. It's there simply for people to leave notes, comments, shout outs, or what have you. So fuck around all you want. I won't ban your IP, because frankly dear, you aren't worth any more of my time and consideration.

Also note: I write on this 'imposter-Abby' topic because it gives me a chance to talk about an outside topic, other than my hobbies and such. It sort of gives me an incentive to write, as I love to do. My writing and 'argument/debate' style is very interesting to me, as a writer, and I enjoy reviewing my own comments to see where I've succeeded in presenting my ideas, and where I may have failed. This might all sound really cheesy, but since I'm not in school any longer I have to find my intellectual stimulation in another form. I'm not using this as a taunt, I very much enjoy writing, no matter how trivial the topic may be.

I'm addicted to 'Chelsea Girl' by THE YELLOW MONKEY now... I was thinking, Yoshii's English lyrics are so funny! They are usually one of two things: 'cool' or 'WTF?!' Here are some examples:

"Would you like cosmetic love?" (I love this one!)

"In changing time'n four seasons I'm crying"

"breach-pleats-crevice come on! / deep-mind-defend come on!"

"I feel so good inside / Tonight songs sing a song / doo doo ya! doo doo doo ya! / Dissonance boogie!"

and... the best of all...

"cock shock wo-baby suck of life / I ain't gonna stand for it body / as if you read my mind / ah for your love / it's muscle of love / want to live good boy and suck of life / be my sucker / be my sucker of life i want you baby / be my sucker of life"

O_o... ohhh... what? LOL!!

listening to: 'Chelsea Girl' by THE YELLOW MONKEY
talking to: the ever-sexy Jia

Doo doo ya! Doo doo doo ya! I need more Yello-Mon! Maybe when I finally get some cash flow. ARG! Teru-kun listened to 'motto' by Judy and Mary. It was a tense moment... I wasn't sure if they would earn approval! But *ping pingity ping* Teru approved!... I think... *glares at GLAY CD whilst gently stroking JAM's final album* I'm so joking it's not even funny. I wouldn't dare steal the title of Jiro-fan from Teru... but there was a time, long before I realized the full extent of YUKI's greatness that I was in fact a GLAY fan girl... not only that, but I too was entranced by the boyish good looks of one bassist Jiro. In fact... I have a larger than life sized bust poster in black and white of Jiro on my bedroom wall... and... a trading card of some sort with Jiro on it shoved into the depths of my wallet. But... since that time many have captured my heart and I've been lead away from GLAY... among my heart-captures were: Aikawa Nanase, Ohguro Maki, Hysteric Blue, The Yellow Monkey, Judy and Mary, and YUKI!

I need to get my ass in gear and start writing content for my book again. The honest to god truth, I haven't been writing recently because my head is way up in the clouds somewhere. You would think this would be the perfect place to write from, but it's not. Many other things, and a certain someone is on my mind all the time, crowding all other thoughts out of the picture. A bad way to be? Some may think, perhaps. To me, NO WAY. I love it. Allow me to stay up here, just a little while longer. I'll come down to Earth again soon, and when I do I'll bring the stars.

I'm truly surprised (yes, I realize it’s misspelled on the icon… shut up! Hehe) people like this new layout! What with black lace, sexy body, and BOOBIES! Hehe, I was worried would people think of it along with my massive YUKI obsession as a sign of hidden bisexual tendency! LOL, which is by no means true. Believe me, if I was bi, you would all know it. Yum... Yuki!! oh... what... oops... what? *cough* Hehehe, teasing.

*stares at the new yuki picture above the tag board*
*notices her tongue is sticking out like yuki's*
*covers mouth* um... yea... um, my new layout. Thanks everyone. ^___^

[I ranted about someone, but just writing it got the angst out. I feel better now. I decided to remove the rant for now]

The next layout for my journal is almost complete. Heheee. It'll have some sexual overtones. *wicked grin* But actually, while it looks perfect on my laptop, it may be too dark when viewed on... let's say, my sister's Dell monitor. So, I'm going to check that out before I put it up. Just a little hint, the theme is black lace, featuring the lingerie-clad torso of -Japanese adult video famed- Maiko Yuki (no, not my YUKI, a different Yuki... in fact this Yuki's real name isn't even Yuki, it's Maki, Wakui Maki... now that I've succeeded in confusing everyone...). I dunno why I chose the 'flirty' icon... it seemed to fit. 'Horny' might have done, but I'll save it for when the layout goes up. Bahaha... *cough* I'm bored... gonna go read... yea, dat sounds good...

listening to: 'LOLLIPOP' by Judy and Mary

Ahh... today was pretty uneventful. I'm out of cigarettes... *cry*. My Judy and Mary t-shirt came. Yeay! It's in the wash now, then I'm going to shrink it in the dryer. *evil grin* Heheeee.

My favorite quote from Fight Club... Adam took the snap of that scene for me.

First of all, I don't give a flaming rat's dirty butthole if people mess with my tag board. It's just there for people to leave quick notes. If I really wanted attention I would get a guestbook and whine about people not signing it like the person messing with my tag board probably does. For those who wonder, the only post on my tag board that's actually me is "Having fun, are we?" The rest are from the lifeless dork who has nothing better to do than pretend to be me... although, who could blame them, I am pretty damn cool.

Also... it's pretty damn sad that you have to fabricate a responce from me in order to make your brilliant come backs. Laughable, to say the least.

"Shingo ga kawaru mae ni watatte yuketara?"
"What happens if you cross before the signal changes?"
-- 'kanojo no taisetsunamono' by Judy and Mary

This lyric (where I got my final thoughts from in my last post) is a metaphor for life... not literally running out into traffic. Very funny Adam.

Happiness is sucking on a peppermint and smelling potpourri at the same time. Happiness is when you do that, it smells like winter holiday cookies and reminds you of the cold season you like so much. Happiness is when you can't wait for the peppermint to dissolve, so you bite it and it's sharp and minty. Happiness is when you chase it with warm coffee and the holiday feeling goes away, and you realize it will be back for real in just a few months. Happiness is when you know the next time you feel like that will be when you’re 21. Happiness is all of that... and some other things, maybe I'll tell you sometime.

Happiness is the pain right before you kiss someone. Happiness is waiting, then running away. Happiness is crossing before the signal changes.

Guess what was updated with a new layout and new content? That's right, my favorite and best site...

------- YUKI.PUNKGIRL.ORG -------

Give it a visit and fall in love... with YUKI, that is.

Oh yea... and here is that third Pucca desktop. This is what my desktop looks like now. Yea, it didn't take very long for me to get sick of the blue one.

The other day I revived chouchou (a rare occurrence) to see if I couldn't find several old, but interesting, emails I used to write to a friend of mine way back before I had a journal. I used to email my daily thoughts to my friend; it really was almost like a journal, except for one person to read. I found about half of them saved in my 'Sent' box, and was tickled to bits! One of them contained some old dreams I had had. Tonight I present to you some dreams I had on the night of May 18th, 2000:

I dreamt first I was making love to someone, but at the same time I was that person. The person was blonde and short, I don't have any idea if it was a woman or a man, but I know I kept switching places with it. Basically it was like making love to myself. Then I found myself and another person (a different person than who I was making love to) trying to enter a tiny white building. It scared the shit out of me because I remembered this place from another dream I had once had. In the other dream it had been a candy and magazine shop out on a street and it had been raining. I enjoyed that dream. This time there was no rain, it was hot and the grass all around was yellowing and becoming patchy. The building's white paint was chipping and there was black underneath. It was dark inside and we banged on the door.

Then I was in a completely different dream all together. I was trying to tame a talking raccoon, a dog, a dozen squirrels, some dragon looking thing, and a cat that looked like -and most likely WAS- Puska (my cat). All of them lived on a large wooden tabletop, which had a small electric train constantly circling the top. I remember a tall, dark haired guy about my age (I think he was my neighbor, but I've never seen him, it just felt like that), shouting directions on what I should do to tame them. He was the owner of the dog. Suddenly I was in a car with Puska and I was thrust into a stylish Halloween outfit. I couldn't tell what I was dressed as, but I knew I liked it. I got out of the car and started walking down my street. A group of three oddly dressed people with microphones danced by me singing about how they were the first ones to be out trick-or-treating. Then a couple (man and woman) did the same thing as the first three. They were dressed as clowns, but it wasn't the American kind, it was the French (pierrot?) kind... I think. I almost didn't want to think of them as clowns. They had their faces all painted white and had the make-up and everything, they almost didn't feel like people, more like they really WERE these things.

Next in my dream, someone -most likely my mother- handed me a plastic container with an odd clear sticky paste in it, there were also some colorful minty candy things in it stuck to the goo. She told me I was taking my niece trick-or-treating, she is almost four, but in the dream she seemed more like two or three (this has never happened in real life, I have no idea why I would dream it). Usually in my dreams when something like this happens I feel fine like it was the most natural thing in the world. This time I remember thinking how strange everything was.

I think I had another dream but I can't remember it.

listening to: 'Oh! Cannot Angel' by Judy and Mary

Yesh yesh yesh! My baby girl is back up again! Tomorrow, after calling to check on my applications, I'm going to finally do all those Sailormoon manga scans I've been putting off for three years. After that it's on to make a new Punk Girl (YUKI) layout and add a new section... you guessed it, concert and video!

Gosh gosh gosh... I can't even concentrate... I need to go to bed.

SWEETUSAGI.COM
............ is back!

listening to: 'Miracle Night Diving' by Judy and Mary
(LIVE at Nippon Budokan [jp], Recorded March 14th 1996, the Miracle Night Diving Tour 1996)

Yes, that's right folks... IT CAME! My Miracle Night Diving Tour 1996 DVD! My most favorite of all the Judy and Mary concerts. *stares at the screen, in a trance*

          ... *

Oh hi... yea... I'm supposed to be posting...

I did some major cleaning, weeding out, and organizing of the files on my computer! I don't know why I love to do it, but I do! I also Pucca-ized my desktop. Aside from the icons, everything on my desktop is color matched. I edited an official Pucca wallpaper to get rid of the logos, and I flipped it to be more balanced with the icons.

I thought I had something more to say... I can't think of it... maybe later.

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Here's another!... I have a third, but I want to keep my desktop like this for a while. Once I do the third I'll throw up a capture:

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Thank you Teru!! Teru sent me this link! *hugs!!*

My site is still down, and I'm still bored... so I took a quiz that Bev took... it turns out, from our quiz results, she's my boyfriend? O.o Uh... sorry bev, I don't like you like that. Hehehe!

Who's your Pucca Character?

I've never seen the golf course behind my house so quiet... and I've never seen so many away messages on my buddy list! School must have started. I know Kenken's first day was yesterday, and Bev's was today... I guess that means most people are off to school and classes and what-have-you.

I'm craving Vanilla Coke in a major way... I haven't had any in a long looooong time. I saw a list on someone's blog a few days ago, it listed 100 random things about that person. I think I may just do something like that later tonight if my site is STILL FUCKING DOWN! In which case I'll be majorly bored and would thus partake of such a profoundly lame activity. First I need some coffee. Then it's off to continue -and hopefully conclude- my job hunt. I tried on my skates yesterday -I have no car, and I'm sick of the time consumption of walking- and they were tight, hope I don't get blisters from them, I haven't used them in five years.

Just to be cute, and to take a cue from Beth... here is a list -subject to change- of what I will be doing today:

1. Shower
2. Coffee
    Check mail
    Try my skates again... (see edit, below)
3. Find Job (I think I might have)
4. Get a money order
5. Return a phone call (see edit 2, below)
    Post about URL graffiti (edit 3, below)
6. Put up new punkgirl.org layout (woo hoo!)
7. Post about how pissed I am! (edit 4, below)
8. Talk to people (edit 5, below)
9. Talk to Michael (I hate crossing it off *sad*)
    Stay up and zone, even though I'm tired
    ignore hunger panges... or whatever
    Talk to Michael again... for a little bit
10. Go to bed *snooze*

Gawd damn... my everyday life is boring... remind me never to make a list of my daily activities ever again! *sighs and trudges off to complete the listed tasks*

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Ok... well first of all the frames are loose and the wheels need new bearings and oil... second, I fucking forgot how to skate! What a sad sad thing. I used to be wicked fast in skates (inlines, NOT roller blades... INLINES... there IS a difference, humph!). Skating was my thing, it was one of the things I was good at and that defined me as a special and unique personlity when I was younger (excuse me but... is anyone else getting Tyler flashbacks right about now?). I have shelves full of metals and trophies for christ sake... but now I'm wobbling like a newborn fawn.

I feel like one of those professional athletes who knows everything about his game and is/was probably one of the best around. However, he suffered from an accident which took him out of the game by no will or fault of his own. So he still feels like a champion... but he now sucks official turd at playing the actual game. That's just how I feel right now. I'm going to go walk now, really far... get all sweaty... when I could be wizzing around in half the time on skates... but no... I fucking forgot how. I'm not afraid to admit it, I feel like a total and complete LOSER at the moment. *trudges off, yet again*
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[EDIT 2]
Wow... how ridiculous! This list put me in a totally organized and focused state of mind! I got so much done in less time than if I hadn't put the stupid thing up. I guess we all know what I'll be doing a lot of from now on. This is great, I feel satisfied. All the important stuff is already out of the way, now I have all these wonderful hours to do fun stuff, before item 9 on my list! Hehehe... I love 9... it's my favorite. *silly grin*
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[EDIT 3]
On my way home from looking for a job and getting that money order on my list, I saw not ONE... but TWO spray painted URLs in two different locations on the bike path that winds it's meandering little way through the golf course behind my house. Now, if you lived in or saw my town you too would find this a tiny bit odd. These URLs are probably some of the only graffiti in my town. In fact it's the only bits I've seen in my area in two or three years really. The last time I saw some was right after high school, on my way to work, one day I saw someone's name spray painted black on a wall next to the place I worked. It was cleaned off and painted over a few days later.

The first URL I had noticed some months earlier, but never thought to post about it. But today, upon seeing this fresh new one in a totally different area of the golf course, I made sure to swing past the spot I had last seen the other. The original one I had spotted was www.stopftaa.org. I visited the site and ganked this little blurb:

-- "On October 31st 2002, the seventh summit of the Free Trade Area of the Americas will take place in Quito, Ecuador, home turf for what are perhaps the strongest social movements in the Americas. Ecuador's indigenous, campesino, labor, womens', environmental, and youth organizations have vowed to shut the summit down, and are calling for solidarity actions across the continent." -- stopftaa.org

I'm still not sure what it's about, why it's important, or why it was so prominently spray painted on the bike path... you can be sure I'll be reading a bit more to find out why. I guess the person who sprayed it there did a rather clever thing. It got my attention.

The second, newer URL was www.smuthut.com... wonder what it is????? Let's visit... shall we? Haha.

For whatever reason, when I saw these things spray painted on the ground, I instantly thought of the Fight Club quote...

"In the world I see -- you're stalking elk through the damp canyon forests around the ruins of Rockefeller Center. You wear leather clothes that will last you the rest of your life. You climb the wrist- thick kudzu vines that wrap the Sears Tower. You see tiny figures pounding corn and laying-strips of venison in the empty car pool lane of an abandoned superhighway." -- Brad Pitt (Tyler Durden), Fight Club
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[EDIT 4]
FUUUUUUCK!! I WANT MY SITE BACK UP GAWD DAMMIT! STUPID FUCKING SERVER!! FUCKING ASS SERVER IS TOTALLY RAPING MY POOR LITTLE SITE! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! *sneeze*
[/EDIT 4]

[EDIT 5]
Talked to everyone... except my two favorite people... Kenken and Bev! *cries* Hurry! Finish that homework, bahahaha! Also, added Phil to P. D. A. on my side bar.
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WHAT THE FUUUUUCK!! MY SITE IS STILL DOWN!!! FUCK THIS SHIIIIIIIIIITE! I want my site back! *cries* This is so fucking stupid! SERVERS SHOULDN'T BE DOWN FOR A WHOLE FUCKING WEEK! ... see... a rampage... sorta... FUh-UCK!

I finished up the next layout for sweetusagi.com, and I have to say... it amazes even me! I love it! It's... ack, TOO COOL! Hehehe. I can't wait for it to be back up tomorrow (and it BETTER BE BACK UP TOMORROW!!) so I can start getting it ready to unveil! The next layout for punkgirl.org is also complete, ultra coolness ahead! I figure it's just about time for punkgirl to get popular! Come on people, tell your friends! Poor little sweetcream.net was thrown on the back burner for a bit, but I'm going back to work on that this week and next. Before the month is out we'll have quite the impressive little graphic art site on our hands!

listening to: 'Girlfriend' by Judy and Mary

I'm working on the new main page layout of punkgirl.org and I realized I have an odd number of girlies! There's nine of us (including the yuki site), and I think we should have ten, a nice even number. Anyone wanna get hosted? Nevermind about that, I figured out what I'll be doing with the extra space.

I've been told that my precious baby will be back up on Tuesday. If it's not I'm going on a fucking rampage. My sweet and adorable baby has never been offline for a week, EVER! Heck, until now she's never been down for more than an hour or so. My little baby must be scared and lonely. Poor little thing. *cuddles her site as if it's an actual baby*

new layout ^__^ wee~! Again, I made all the graphics (rather than using a picture of something). I'm special...

listening to: 'Lucky Star' by Mean Machine

YEAY! I'm going to reply to Adam and Robin from the tag board up here instead, makes things easier!

Adam, finally! Yea... my site's been down for like FIVE f@#$ing days. Email me at natsuki@punkgirl.org or natsukigirl@yahoo.com

Robin, the font I used is one of the many awesome bitmap fonts from 04! This one in particular is 04B-08 [ third one down, here ] It says to use it at 8pt, they mean 8 pixels, not points. Or at least, that's what photoshop says. Get all the fonts on that page, you will use them at some point or another. I'm a total font addict, once I get a font I can't see how I ever survived without it. ESPECIALLY this one, probably, aside from Drifter, it's my favorite small font. Enjoy!