The archive pages didn't work... and I had no idea. I just discovered the problem, fixed it, now you can read all my past entries again. Oopsie poopsie!
listening to: 'Little Miss Highway' by Judy and Mary
My part of sweetcream, SODA.sweetcream.NET will be up as soon as sweetusagi.com switches to it's new server (which should be any time now... wonder why it hasn't switched yet...). The rest of sweetcream.net will go up soon after that. PunkGirl.org will be getting a new layout soon! I have two weeks off... lots 'o' time to get stuff done! Maybe...
Bev-bev says crest white strips work really well. I want to try them too, I'm a smoker AND a coffee person... I really should! Hahaha. But she said they are hella expensive... arg.
Today was a totally boring day... what a waste...
listening to: 'BIRTHDAY SONG' and 'The Great Escape' by Judy and Mary
My sister just arrived from New Jersey (I'm going to show her the magic of 'Fight Club' soon, she's never seen it! Yet she makes fun of my fandom saying 'NOOOOOORTON' [referring to Edward Norton] in a comical tone). I took Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday off to visit with her, shop, and get my hair and nails done for our cousin's wedding. The wedding will be down in Louisville, Kentucky on the third and my sister and I are going down the night before. She's going home afterward, but I'm staying for the rest of the week at Michael's. One more little week, I can't wait.
I bought a new portable CD player, a candy-pink sony walkman! It's so adorable! If I could find my kitty-chan stickers I would be adorning it already. I sent out the money for the JAM concert DVDs and they should be here soon, hopefully before I go down south.
I really want to win the Ayu auction for kento... but I just spent a lot of money and will be spending a lot more on myself for vacation... I don't know if I can be without the $50~60 it might end up costing to get them for him. If he would friggin get online and give me an estimate of how long it would be before he could pay me back then maybe I would! X_x ARG! KEN!!!
YEAY! I just bought a couple of DVDs! *dances around* Judy and Mary Pop Life Suicide 1 & 2, and The Power Stadium Destroy concerts! *scream of glee* Yuki Yuki Yuki Yuki Yuki!!
listening to: 'kaze ni fukarete' by Judy and Mary
I was singing this song to my cat just now and she was cuddling up close to me. ^_^ Mew mew mew! I love my kitty!
A few days ago I found a penny from the Bahamas... It had a starfish on the back and a weird emblem with a dolphin on the other side. I'll be working in the cash office at work soon, so I'm sure I'll get to see lots of other currency as well. We had a meeting after work on Tuesday; they’re going to start me in the office after I get back from vacation.
Tonight I might go to a friend's house that I haven't seen in five years! That will be weird...
Right now I'm uploading my 700+ yuki picture gallery to the new server... this is taking forever!!! Hahaha...
You know what, I'm sorry this post is so boring... but I'm so unmotivated today... I need coffee!!!!!!!! *goes to make coffee*
Ok... I'll now attempt to fix blogger, AGAIN!
WHAT IS BLOGGER DOING NOW??!?! Shit... man, there's like three pages of july here and August?!?!?!... I'm sorry but, WHAT THE FUCK?! Honestly... You know what, I'm too tired to deal with this crap... I'm going to bed. You'll all have to deal with blogger's shitty ass bugs for now... NATSUKI IS GOING TO BED!!
Once again I had to restart my blog! ARG! Hopefully this time all will be well... I'm going to re-post everything from July on here, so this is going to be a huge long page until the month changes and I've posted a few times. I'll post a lot to get it cleared off the screen once August arrives. I'll probably have lots to talk about anyway... let's hope this works...
[i took the posts out, you can find them in the 'Past Entries' listed as 07/02 (part 1)]
listening to: 'ai no kotodama' by Southern All Stars '(song I forgot the title to)' by The Yellow Monkey
Gawd... I think I've decided beyond a doubt, 'The Yellow Monkey' is my favorite male vocal band! Lovin's (Yoshii's) voice is just... AHH!!! So f@#$ing good! To even think he hated singing!?
Somehow I broke my blog beyond repair. Hahaha. So, I have to start it over again. It's all very well with me, I wanted it on a subdomain instead anyway. Tonight or sometime tomorrow I'll be moving my blog one more time. Probably to lolli.punkgirl.org or something close to that.
I have Wednesday and Thursday off from work! I'll be spending long hours moving sweetusagi over to it's new server. I'll also be working on a new punkgirl.org main page layout, sweetcream.net stuffies, SODA.sweetcream.NET (sort of a personal graphic art site, for my projects)... oh geez... what else... who knows. I have lots to do!
Only a week and a half left before I head to Kentucky for my cousin's wedding. I had planned to spend vacation with my sister in Virginia, but we canceled those plans, so instead I'm going down to spend the rest of that week with Michael. So exciting! Hehe.
Ok... so I'm off to battle with the evil blogger!!!!!
I hope blogger doesn't mess up again... I hope I hope.
But anyway... guess who's back?
(((click))) -- KENTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -- (((click)))
I'm not sure that I want to blog yet today, but I made my rounds (as in, visited all the sites I like to see daily) and I have to say that your new layout is FANTASTIC!! I love it so much!
Omg... look at that! Blogger fucked up... it like merged two of my posts together... and I can't fix it! *wimper*
listening to: 'banzai' by Ulfuls
Songs from your past will chew up your insides and spit them back out, making your stomach and heart feel just like so much regurgitated dog food. The songs that do this to me the most are...
‘banzai’ - Ulfuls
‘alone in my room’ and ‘love the island’ - Suzuki Ami
‘my sweet darlin’ - Yaida Hitomi
I have linked Grace! We work together, she is cool, she is fun, she is fantastical! Look at her journal and bask in her hip-ness... me lurrrrvs gracie-poo!
listening to: 'gattsu daze!!' by Ulfuls
I've been working very hard on my graphic art site!! It's my newest project and I'm obsessed with making it cool. The picture above on the left is a little tease of what the layout will look like. I warn everyone right now, this will be optimized for 1024x768, IE5.5(+) and 32bit true color... and I'm not sure I'm ambitious enough to make a light version, so... if you want to see my fantastic art *GRIN* then I hope you have all of these things.
I got all nostalgic about Sailormoon (top right)... maybe I'll update my SM site finally?... *GASP!!*
I'm working on the layout for my personal section of sweetcream.NET graphic art site. :D This is going to be so much fun I can hardly stand it!
listening to: 'Emerald' by Ohguro Maki
... the song speaks for itself! *smile*
listening to: 'COSMETIC LOVE' by The Yellow Monkey
I have spider bites on my feet! DAMN SPIDERS! It itches!
I'm frightened! Haha. Some creepy guy is here at my house to fix the cable wires the sprinkler people fucked up. He's wearing a grey t-shirt and messy jeans and he spit on the deck... what a creepy individual! Hope he leaves soon!
*drinking a vanilla coke and madly scribbling in my notebook*
I'm about to go work on my book. I just have this feeling... a feeling like if I start writing whatever... I'll get something good. I don't really feel inspired, but I think that if I only write when I'm inspired my book will end up mooshy or too... too... cramped. I'll be trying to put too much in. So I'm going to go write up some hum-drum, uninspired filler to balance the good stuff. Hehe... and of course when I'm motivated to do something is the exact moment someone let's me know we can talk on the phone now... how did I know that would probably happen. Ok so... maybe I'll feel uninspired again tomorrow.
Ok... so I lied. Actually no... I was working on a layout for my personal site, but the more I worked on it the more it looked like a journal layout. So here you go, a new journal layout. I'm sure many of you are thankful that this one isn't as eye-straining as the last one. Hehe.
Forgive me... I just HAD to do this quiz... but for new readers of my journal, this is like the second quiz I've posted in two years. Hehe.
I have the day off! Tomorrow also... yep, same as last week.
Yesterday I bought eight notebooks, which I will use to write my book when I'm away from my computer. I realized that using a notebook and writing in other places aside from my room and deck are really helping me formulate more ideas. Actually, for some reason, I'm able to be more complete and detailed. For example, yesterday just out of the blue I started writing, and when I was finished I had a big chunk of stuff completed; Which I'll be adding to the first chapter (it will greatly improve the character development).
I have the layout for sweetusagi.com's third year anniversary finished. I need to move to my new server but my host hasn't been online very much the past few weeks! So... I'll be putting up the layout I made last night to tide us all over (because my current layout there is getting irritating, really) before the "big move."
Today and tomorrow I'll be making new layouts for punkgirl.org and my personal site (not the blog, that will come later). Sweetcream.NET (a random graphic art and public service project I'm doing with my best-est net-friend Kento) should be up in some fashion before August!
I don't like that I distract Michael from his work so much. I feel bad. I can't help but feel greedy, it feels so good to talk to him everyday.
The 'coming-soon' splash page for my newest domain sweetcream.net is up!... anyone know of a domain name addicts clique I could join? Haha! So many projects, so little time!
Don't forget to steal my vanilla coke button! Go'head... nab it! You know you want to!
I'm officially proclaiming my blog as a Vanilla Coke clique. There's a button here, and on the side under 'Classic' you can swipe. Link it back to my journal from your journal (where I hope you'll put it), and I'll link you on my journal here (duh... you'll have to email me). Simple, easy... good... ok, now go steal my delicious button (don't direct link), 'cus I know you're dying to! I'm tired... take advantage!
listening to: the washing machine spin cycle! wash warm.... tumble dry...
I have to work at 5:45 AM... I talked to Michael earlier around 12~1AM and then fell asleep on the couch until just about now. When I looked at my clock it said 2:41AM. I had some cereal and now I'm chugging coffee, because I sure as hell am not going back to sleep.
I had a dream. The first part of the dream I lived on a totally different planet. Some things happened which I cannot recall... but in the end of the sequence a butterfly alien wrote an email to someone on the planet saying she would be home soon. That person sent an email back replying "I'm surprised your still here, since they got rid of bugs some years ago." The next part of the dream was supposedly connected to this, but not. The scene was set out by the road next to my walking path half way between my house and where I work. All colors in shades of red, orange, and yellow -except maybe a little green and blue for plants once in a while. In this part of the dream, I worked where I work -but it was different somehow- and every day on the way home people would be attacked, or disturbed by these wolves. I knew these wolves were friendly, human-like, and they could talk. I liked them. Everyday I would sit outside and wait for them, so I could protect them. My neighbor, some fairly thin, cut, good looking guy with long dark hair and a mustache, and his family (a wife and two young boys) didn't like these wolves, me, or my hyper human sized pet chimp. My chimp died, or ran away or something in the dream. So I dressed up in a chimp outfit and bounded around the neighborhood like he used to. I pounced up to my porch to go inside and the guy’s one boy said something about me. I looked over and the guy looked pissed, at me! He had a shovel and threw sand on me, saying mean things to me and looking at me sideways. He mentioned that the police had caught the wolves... I was upset. Then I woke up.
Strange, I haven't had a dream in a while, so this was almost a welcome experience. But geez... such strange dreams that make no sense when you only sleep for two hours... I'm still hazy... more coffee!!
listen to the last two, on the very bottom Hahaha... she's pretty good!
I added a tag board for kicks... just to see what will happen... ain't i tha shiz?
I walked home from work today, as usual, but this time I was carrying a 12 pack of Vanilla Coke. Oh... the agony.
No time to talk... gotta go work on the coolness of SweetCream.NET ... and scan stuff for Ichigo.nu. Moi projects with KENTO!!
... wow... when will the insanity end?! I just registered sweetcream.NET for kento and I to have a random place to post things... I think I'll be doing some photoshop tutorials also there... MAYBE some hosting... who knows?
listening to: 'my sweet darlin' by Yaida Hitomi... over and over and over...
FUCK THIS SONG. Fuck this song and it's beautiful melody. Fuck this song and it's lyrics that make me so sad. Fuck this song that begs to be sung at a scream! Fuck this song and all the bad ideas it gives me. Fuck the daydream I just had. Fuck the red eye lenses, fuck the scars, fuck the short pink hair, fuck the meanness, fuck the monster! Fuck this song and all the horrible memories. Fuck this song and all the depression it proclaims as my future. Fuck this song and how it makes me feel so horrible and how it makes me love it so much! Save me from this horrible feeling. Destroy the cd, the headphones. Don't let me listen to it! Don't let me listen to my past! Don't let it imprint it's terribleness on my present! The feeling is killing me! Oh the frustrating worry! Horrible, evil song, claiming to speak my soul at every verse! How can I HATE and LOVE this song so much!?!?!? Fucking evil song, don't make me cry!
Give me the courage to open the door. Let me run outside and scream at the stars. Scare away all the memories!
listening to: 'LADY MADONNA' by Love Psychedelico
Eww... my parents bought 2% milk instead of the usual 1/2%! GROSS!
I did a lot of cool things today... but no one is online who I want to share it all with. I am sad. Boo hoo, sad me.
I love photoshop, and I love that I've been using it for so many years that I've developed cool techs... techs that help me do neat shit like this (left is original, right is my edit). Aren't I the coolest? This has inspired me to create a domain for graphics, free tutorials, and randomness with my best-esh friend kento!
I'm very happy, I've been in a writing mood, I got a whole new chapter done for my book. My chapters are too short, I need to beef them up quite a bit.
listening to: 'Moonly' by Love Psychedelico
buu buu buu~ working on my novel~*
Wow... aren't lying parents the best?
Dad: Your mother is on the phone.
Me: Oh, who's she talkin' to?
Dad: That's none of your business.
Me: Huh?
Dad: You never tell us who you're on the phone with.
Me: Uh, yes I do! I sure do...
Dad: *mummble*
*(note: Dad finally had to do the dishes for ONCE)*
Dad: You never do the dishes! You don't help out around here!
*(note: I always do the dishes, I'm the only one who does, and I always help out. I do lots of things around the house, more than anyone else)*
Me: Yes I do do the dishes! I do them almost every day!
Dad: No you don't I always have to do it!
*(note: no he doesn't, he's just upset because he had to do them for ONCE!)*
Me: Don't get nasty with me just because I didn't do them and you had to do them for once!
Dad: *mummble*
*(note: I always listen when my Dad feels the urge to rave about his hobbies)*
Dad: You never take an active interest in the family!
Me: That's not true, you don't care about the things I do.
Dad: No, that's an excuse.
Me: Oh really? Then why did I stand here and listen to you talk about your new trains and the different models and everything? Why did I ask Mom if she wanted me to do her website?
Dad: *mummble*
My mom does this hypocritical lying as well, but not nearly as often and it's always such a huge fucking deal that I just let her get away with it.
Ahhhh... I had a little argument with Michael, but we realized it wouldn't have been an argument if we had been on the phone to begin with instead of aim! Aim is not that good of a communication medium... not as good as some people try to make it out to be. Anyway, I was a little freaked out about it, it was pretty much out first... what to call it?... whatever, argument... fight... not really... disagreement? Maybe? Whatever it was it wasn't bad, and it was all aim's fault. Hehehe. ^_^ In a way, I'm almost a little glad it happened. Should I explain what I mean?... nah! Hehehe...
SweetUsagi.com is almost three years old (mid August)! I'll be switching servers and putting up the neato layout I've prepared for it. I also have Tuesday and Wednesday off! WOO! I'll be working hard on my sites! OH YEA! and Serbie finally got her journal up on punkgirl!
I HATE THE NEWS. I'll never watch the news or read the newspaper again. Don't anybody update me on current or future events. I don't want to hear about it. I shouldn't be allowed to think. That's right, whenever I try to do or say anything outside of my planned ideals, I mess up. I know that's hypocritical, just help me out. Don't teach me anything new. Please!! I'm serious...
listening to: the hum of my vaio
I had some watermelon for dinner... yea... that's what I eat for dinner when I work until two in the morning. Watermelon. Watermelon and a cigarette... that was my dinner. I didn't have much for breakfast or lunch either... I wonder how I even keep going, running on such little amounts of food. It's not like I'm even doing it on purpose. I'm just not hungry at all, and I get full easily. This morning I had one egg and a tomato for breakfast... and I felt a little sick afterward, the kind of sick you get when you eat too much. O_o ok... well, oh well.
I thought of some things to write about while I was at work... but now I'm drawing a blank. Well... I guess I'll go to bed, after I smoke and listen to some music...
listening to: 'Heavens Drive' by L'Arc~en~Ciel
I'm really angry with Photoshop right now! Twice now I've tried to use a filer fade and TWICE it caused errors that closed photoshop, causing me to loose my work!
Anyway... I saw a Cirque du Soleil show this afternoon. It wasn't as good as I thought it was going to be. Although at one point the lighting made one of the costumes look totally different than it really looked, which gave me an idea for my new layout colors on sweetusagi.
I'm feeling very uninspired to write today...
It's July 4th~!
I created the little graphic above, pretty cool huh?
Yesterday, my neighborhood had a little fireworks show. You could see them from my house. I live right next to a golf course -a great place to go and see fireworks- but the people who own it turned on the big lawn sprinklers to keep people away. I could see them pretty well, filtering a little through an oak tree and the lattus on the deck. Tonight I'm going to see a show by Cirque du Soleil. My mother was supposed to go, but she decided to take a little vacation with her friend and gave me her ticket.
This post is a little rushed, because I want to do some other things before I go out for the evening. Above all other events of today, I really can't wait to come home tonight.
Bang bang! Baby, I feel good!
listening to: 'Cosmetic Love' by The Yellow Monkey
Ok... so I was in Chicago for the weekend, with Michael. It was ok there, Chicago isn't the best. There was a Gay Pride "Parade" there on Sunday O_o ... that was... really weird. So many cross dressers and genderless people making out... it was a little disturbing.
I don't really know what to say here. All the details about my weekend aren't something I want to be sharing with some of my more hostile readers. That's really a shame that I have to be so hypersensitive about what I write here anymore. I shouldn't have to fear those few jerks that like to dig through my journal, twist my words, and post it all around for everyone and their dog to see. This actually wasn't ment to be a popular read either... but I guess it sort of became that way.