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listening to: 'Stereo Zenkai' by Judy and Mary, and 'Cosmic Love' by Aikawa Nanase

Final Fantasy 10 rocks! I can say this with pride and ease because I'm not a seasoned FF player. People keep saying "It's nothing like the other's it sucks it sucks". But, I do know this... if you put all your knowledge of all the other FF games aside; the battle system, the system for level raising, the map system etc... this thing rocks harder than any of the others. Yes, I know 7 and 9 are awesome... but did they have this type of AWESOME graphic genius? NO! First of all I can't stand the graphics in 7, and the characters in 9 were mostly SD style which is kind of annoying. People said 7 was so sad and touching, but not as touching at 10! 9 wasn't touching at all, and the ending was very predictable. 10 is just awesome! Forget that it's FF and just enjoy the game, PLEASE!

The only thing I thought was a little annoying about 10 was that you are prone to using Yuna and her aeons by default... I love Rikku and I wanted to see more of her stuff, I didn't even really get to see her overdrive in action yet. Also, you are basically FORCED to use Yuna and the aeons in the final two or three battles. The ending was sad and beautiful... but kind of left you empty. They should have left the little part of Tidus waking up out of the after credit sequence. Ooops... did I just mess up someone's game? The replay value of 10 is quite high, Rikku's overdrive alone could keep you busy for quite a while. The complicated nature of the battle system has it's own special appeal, to me at least. I miss the detailed Chocobo raising, in 10 it takes all of 5 minutes to train one, and there aren't many extras that come with it (aside from Tidus' Sun Sigil and Caladbolg). The legendary weapons weren't very cool... I like Wakka's (Brotherhood) sword design far more than Tidus' own Caladbolg. Auron's Masamune was cool at least.

My favorite CGs are probably all the same ones everyone else loves too. 'False Vows' and 'Believe' are my favorites by far... as well as the very beginning scenes and the ending scenes (duh). The little 'in-game graphic' scene just before the fight with Yunalesca was kind of cool too, it kind of got you pumped and ready for the battle.

I think the two phrases I repeated most about this game and the characters were "This is SO AWESOME!" and "This is SO JAPANESE!" haha... duh, right? Tidus and Rikku are the most Japanese looking characters I've ever seen out of an FF game, no contest. Rikku is a total kogyaru! And Tidus is just adorable! Wakka is utterly something out of Japan too, I have a certain idea of what he's supposed to be... but I can't quite pinpoint it exactly... not chimpira, but close. I think the graphics in this game would make anyone shiver with delight!

I love coffee! I've always loved coffee. Especially since my senior year of highschool, I started drinking coffee A LOT! I would drink a whole pot of coffee a day. I like my coffee with a little cream, not a lot, just enough so that it's medium brown but not overly creamy tasting. Recently I've been drinking my coffee black too. The only time I like creamy coffee is when I get a caramel highrise from Caribou (a cafe really close to my apartment). Sometimes I let it all melt into the coffee, but if I cave in and decided to eat the caramel and cream off the top... Ahhhhhhh!!! It's like heaven... almost better then sex! The kind of cream they use is almost too rich, and the caramel is extra fresh which is always a plus. My favorite is just a plain old espresso, but sometimes they make it wrong at the cafe, so I dig just regular old coffee. The reason I'm yapping about coffee is because right now as I write this my coffee keeps getting cold before I even finish half the cup... bah! I've always wanted to say "I like my coffee dark and sweet... like my men..." hahaha, I'm wierd like that.

The girl right above my apartment is so frigging loud! To make matter's worse, the layouts of our apartments are the same, so her room is right above mine. She's not big, but she stomps around like she's a ton! At least twice a month I hear her loud and clear screaming at her room mate and slamming doors late at night. I think I've heard her go through three different room mates (because after each fight I see a different girl storm out to her car). So, she's either lesbian and going through girlfriends like water, or she's a BAD roomie. I also heard her having a fight with a guy (probably her boyfriend, maybe she's bi??). I didn't have to even look out the window, I knew exactly what happened. It was early in the morning, I just woke up because of the yelling and door slaming, and laid there trying to wake up a bit more before going and making coffee. This is basically what I heard:

*a bunch of screaming and yelling by the girl at the guy, I forget the subject matter*

*I hear lots of stomping and then a door slam, it was far away so I assume it was her front door*

*someone is walking down the metal stairs in the hall lobby area, probably the boyfriend*

*stomping upstairs, door slams, judging from the layout of my apartment she went into the bathroom*

*I hear a car door shut out front and someone drives off, probably the boyfriend leaving*

*I'm right, she's in the bathroom, the shower turns on*

*a car pulls into the lot, I'm thinking it must be the boyfriend coming back to talk to her some more, because this early in the morning people are 'leaving' for work, not coming back in*

*I hear the shower still*

*someone presses a buzzer (probably her's), I can faintly hear it*

At that point I wanted to go tell the guy that she's in the shower and not actually ignoring him... because if I were her I would probably be upset that I missed his return. But it's none of my business. I get up to make my coffee and I hear a car door shut and drive off. I'm kinda sad for them.

I've been working really hard on improving my CG skills. I think my main problem was working on each of them for too long. If I color them like I'm in a hurry they turn out a lot better. I think nitpicking over the picture causes me to mess up, but focusing on the picture as a whole and doing it without too much mulling makes them turn out much better.

I miss my internet connection. I miss having everyone to talk to. Sure, it slowed down my site work, but it also gave me tons of great ideas and helped me keep my ideas fresh. Now that I work on my site without talking to people I spend too much time on them, and re-do layouts over and over 3 to 4 times! That has it's benifits, but I also get upset when I've lost the chance to use a decent layout because I already came up with something better. I probably have just as many un-used layouts now as I do ones that have been put up. I'm actually thinking of opening up a layout and graphic design shop. I'm not being vain, but I think I'm to the point where giving away layouts for free would be a total waste of my talent, so I will be charging for them if I do. I need to start studying Flash again...

For my sister's birthday I saw my parents again for the first time in months. They had a Christmas and Birthday gift for me... which shocked me. Gifts are nice, but what I really want is to just feel like I'm being loved. When you lose your parents love (which, now that I think about it, then never really showed me love and caring the way I wanted it. I'm not being selfish, I just believe that if you love someone you need to show it and tell them always, not just every now and then with comments and gifts.) you tend to feel especially lonely and sensitive. At least that is what happened to me. Any negitive social experience becomes 1,000 times more upsetting when you don't have the love of a parent right there for you. I also broke up with my boyfriend, I have bad luck with guys, I can never find a decent one, excuse me, let me rephrase, not EVEN a DECENT one. I'm not extremely picky when it comes to guys, but now I think I should be! *cough*. So, I've become a touchy, sensitive, and irritable person. Online I'm still the same, but things are now effecting me differently. I miss my friends (real and online) so much! I crave talking to everyone, even people who didn't think I thought of them as a friend. Someone I talk to a lot online said that to me recently, and I was suprised they thought I didn't see them as a real friend. Well I do. ^_^ Don't make such a mistake, hehe. Losing parents, internet / talking online, and real life friends (because we all go/went to different universities) really, REALLY, sucks.


----- old un-blogged blog entry from December 4th -------


I was looking at christmas lights the other night and I realized just how oddly lazy people are ( that's sort of a 'duh' isn't it ^^; )They -whomever- want to participate in decorating the town with pretty lights to lift everyone's spirits, yet... they are extremely lazy about it! All the little trees were decorated in the traditional street-x-mas lights (i.o.w. small white lights). The big trees were also decorated in the same way, except the large pines were only decorated on the very bottom branches! At first I though "...well of course, they ran out of lights so they couldn't finish..." but then... "...why not decorate the very top branches... it would look more like a tree up high than an ugly dark shadow with lights falling down from it..." then I remembered... "oh yea... people are lazy!"

I don't feel like posting right now, because I have lots to do updating my sites. But I felt I should announce that I've broken up with my boyfriend (because I talked about him a lot here on my site). It's no one's business why and all that junk, but I felt I should make is public now. ^_^ I'll be blogging again during Super Bowl Sunday! So look for an entry then.