I think it’s about time I told the story of a friendship, a friendship between two people. One of these people was a girl, the other was a pretty nice dude named Hans Nicholas Schumacher. Now Hans, you see, was quite the talented guy; among other things he spoke German fluently and was well versed in the ways of Sailormoon. The two people met in a German Sailormoon chat room about three years ago. Right away the friendship was an argumentative one, but soon they found out they agreed on many of the same things, and so began quite a nice and sharing friendship. Quite nice, yes it was. Almost everyday the girl would email Hans with lots of things having to do with Sailormoon, and vice versa. Nice huh? Yes it was. Hans and the girl talked to each other about lots of things. Among many interesting topics they spoke to each other of their own life’s troubles and secrets. Then Hans fell in love with the girl and the girl said she liked Hans very much in return, and so Hans thought they would get together someday. At the time however the girl had a boyfriend, and a relationship on the rocks, so Hans hopes rose. Hans took it upon himself to help the girl out of that relationship, and the girl was grateful for the support, grateful for a friend such as him.

The girl thought maybe he would see that friendship was more important than having that ‘girlfriend’ he always wanted, but he never saw it that way. Eventually Hans got very persistent and would remind the girl constantly that he had strong feelings for her. Eventually the girl began to feel very smothered and so told Hans that he shouldn’t be quite so pushy about his feelings or she might start to not like him as much anymore. He got hurt by this, and so he got very upset and asked a friend of his to talk with the girl, trying to change her mind. Eventually the girl met someone and fell in love. Hans found out about this and somehow felt hurt that he wasn’t the one the girl fell in love with. Instead of being happy that he succeeded in helping her out of that hurtful relationship, he became angry. He confronted the girl and told her that because she never gave him a chance at her heart that she should go to hell. He also told her that he was so hurt by her choice that he was going to commit suicide; he left and never spoke to her again.

Not knowing what to do, or what would happen, the girl told her boyfriend and other friends about the ordeal. What Hans had done to the girl -this very immoral, emotional blackmail- angered the people she showed. She was worried and scared that he might actually do what he threatened. She found out later that it was only a threat, a lie to hurt her. So now, after many months, Hans has begun to tell others that this girl is a deceptive eel who played with his heart. The girl saw this. But the girl isn’t saying anything; she will let him sit there in his own filth. He knows what he did and he knows very well that he should be punishing himself. He can continue to be the despicable coward he is, continuously denying that it is that same selfishness and black heartedness that has so far not lead him to true love or friendship. That selfish nature that drives even the most caring people away.

Despite all of that, the girl ‘would’ continue to be a loyal friend. The girl will venture to guess that selfish people don’t give a damn about loyalty or friendship. She wonders why such ‘all or nothing’ people exist.

Obviously, by now you’ve guessed that the girl was me. Ok... so that's all I have to say about that.

song: 'Girl's Talk' by Yaida Hitomi

New layout~* ^.^ I'm keeping the 'rainbow devil' theme and the connection to Judy and Mary here, but I removed graceful YUKI. I spent two weeks with Joe and now I'm back. ;_; *sniffle* I have lots to write about, but I'm not in a writing mood. ^^